These days, I am thrilling in the love of God that came to us without our prompting. What I mean by that is that God's love is not like our love, and that is what makes it amazing. See - the love that we are familiar with on this earth is love that sees something in someone and responds to it. God's love is not like this.
Don't think you understand this easily - think through it. I began to love Amy twenty years ago because I saw in her things I admired and was attracted to. She was beautiful. She was very smart. She was kind, etc. SEE? My love was a response to things I had seen in her.
Now, God's love is not like this at all. Stop and consider that He CHOSE to love you, despite NOT being attracted to you. In fact, He is repulsed by His rebellious creation. He was repulsed by your sin, your disobedience, your attempts at self righteousness. This is how He found you when He came to you and loved you. When He called you to be saved, He called you because He decided to, not because He saw anything that He liked in you. This is why the wind of salvation is impossible to predict. People of any status, condition, class, etc. are perfect candidates to be saved. God is not a respecter of persons because the love of salvation comes from His side totally.
I think you probably agree with me on the surface, but don't realize that some of the things we say in evangelism conflict with this. We (general Christianity) refer to people "seeking" for God. WHAT?!? This is certainly different than what my Bible says. God found us running away from Him. This is why His love is so amazing. It is generated from His side. If you find a "seeker", it is only because God's love is calling them. He is turning them around when they are running from Him. Amazing love. If this really sinks in, you will have a "precarious moment" when you realize that you should not be saved - there is no reason you generated for God to save you. If you get this, it will take your breath, your chest will tighten and you will realize how close you came to hell. You will say with the old Hymn writer, "Lord, why was I a guest?"
If we understand this Biblically, things like "feeling like God is far away" doesn't make sense anymore. If He initiated His love toward you in eternal salvation, the constancy of love is sustained by Him, not you. If He decided to love you as an enemy, He much more continues to love you through your Christian struggles and failures. He sustains the love, not you. Not your performance.
Lately, I am thrilling in the unprompted love of God.